What is life if it doesn’t coalesce with the ebb and flow of happiness and sadness? The two emotions hopelessly drawn together forever in our sentient minds; Like the electric touch of a magnet meeting it’s opposite. We as humans like to believe that happiness is our true goal in life, naively neglecting the fact […]Read More Waves; The Internal Battle for Happiness
I’ll catch you when the next sunset comes around. That was essentially my prerogative for as long as I can remember. And if you caught me in the dark you’d see parts of the real me, until the night wore thin and we’d all shuffle off to our little holes in the wall. It was […]Read More Crumbling: My Life In Pieces
I’ve been an addict for a long time, primarily with opiates which I’ve been free of mostly for about 3 years now despite the occasional binge and alcohol which I used daily up until recently. Alcohol was never my addiction though, it was only an escape. Other than that I’ve abused just about every drug […]Read More Sobriety has to be selfish
Let me begin by letting you know what my favorite word is. Technically it isn’t a word yet, as it isn’t recognized in any dictionary. Regardless, it’s definition is one of the most meaningful realizations in life, at least in my personal opinion. Sonder – n. the realization that each random passerby is living a life […]Read More Let’s Take a Walk Through Life
Since beginning this process, my journaling and introspection has been the greatest key to my progress. Counseling has helped, so have medication changes, but truly trying to understand myself has been the key to overcoming the addictions that have controlled my life; You have to learn to be completely honest with yourself, and it doesn’t […]Read More Self reflection; The addicts greatest enemy and only salvation.
In life we all make mistakes; some of which we can come to terms with and others remain beyond reclamation. In my opinion, the worst mistakes are the ones in which we accidentally hurt other people, whether physical or emotionally, in the process. Specifically in this post I’m talking about causing another individual emotional distress […]Read More All Apologies: The ones spoken and the ones we never get to say
It’s never too late; if you ask them they’ll most likely tell you, “It’s never too late”. In some aspects I suppose they’re right. I have the choice to make changes now that will impact my life for the better; such as living a healthier lifestyle now in order to set myself up for having […]Read More They say it’s never too late
A little bit of back story for you good folks. I’ve been an addict for about 8 years now, I’ve used a wide range of drugs but my only true addiction was to opiates and my fallback; alcohol. I am finally realizing that my propensity for using these substances was due to my underlying […]Read More The struggle of a propensity towards addiction and an accidental addiction to Benzo’s; trying to get my life together