Every day seems harder and harder. I’m so close to being done with my benzo taper but it’s become a tremendously difficult task at the end; It was like I could see the light, but now it seems farther away with every turn of the world. It’s been almost 8 months now and I can’t […]Read More It’s Just Life
Love is one of the most beautiful things in existence. It can make you feel like a balloon so elated and floating away. It can also be that same balloon struck by a needle and exhaling its last bit of life as it swirls around the room eventually to wither and lay lifeless. Along with […]Read More Walking Her To Her Car For The Last Time
For the longest time I lived my life stuck in my own head. My thoughts swirling around, zipping through my synapses; but they never left the place of their origin. I was so introverted that I let so many opportunities pass me by. So much life that I could have experienced, but didn’t because I […]Read More Take a Seat and Enjoy the Ride
This is a more personal post, I try to refrain from this but these last couple of days haven’t been the greatest. I tend not to dream a lot while sleeping but recently I’ve been dreaming more so than normal. I work a day shift job, 7AM to 5PM Monday through Friday and Friday morning […]Read More Waking up at 5PM
If you’re an addict, undoubtedly you’ve caused pain to others if you’ve ever let them get close to you. I never thought about this in my past, when I was actively using, likely because I never let people get close to me. The only people that knew the real me had known it for a […]Read More When your own addictions hurt others; how can you forgive yourself?
If you’ve followed my blog any you know that this past year hasn’t been the best for me; especially this last 6 months. I’ve always struggled with depression, anxiety, and my greatest task of living a sober life; but I was crushed when my relationship ended due to my addictions. When my significant other and […]Read More Meet Peaches Muhgee: My emotional support animal
A brief history of my life as an addict, lost love, and my path towards sobriety. This is by far the most personal post I’ve ever made on my blog. If you’re interested about the life and evolution of an addict all the while struggling with depression and anxiety, please click the link below and […]Read More LIKE COGS IN THE WHEEL OF LIFE, SOME OF US JUST DON’T FIT QUITE AS WELL.
As we all likely know, relationships can be difficult; especially when you are dealing with addiction and depression issues. Mine led me to destroy the best thing that I had ever found to date; I broke another persons heart along with my own. This is my personal binding chain of shame and my own self […]Read More All Apologies: The ones spoken and the ones we never get to say.
In life we all make mistakes; some of which we can come to terms with and others remain beyond reclamation. In my opinion, the worst mistakes are the ones in which we accidentally hurt other people, whether physical or emotionally, in the process. Specifically in this post I’m talking about causing another individual emotional distress […]Read More All Apologies: The ones spoken and the ones we never get to say