Sometimes in life it feels like you’re standing in the middle of a storm. Surrounded on all sides by large dark clouds. Life can really turn into quite the shit-show at times, especially if we let the storm grow until the point of breaking. It’s like the metaphor of the snowball rolling down the hill, […]Read More Dark Clouds
I’ll catch you when the next sunset comes around. That was essentially my prerogative for as long as I can remember. And if you caught me in the dark you’d see parts of the real me, until the night wore thin and we’d all shuffle off to our little holes in the wall. It was […]Read More Crumbling: My Life In Pieces
I don’t know how many people under the age of 18 follow my WordPress account or sister Facebook page; if there is a way to do so, somebody please let me know. But now that I’ve started a Facebook page, the teenagers playground, I want to write a post directed primarily at people under the […]Read More To My Teenage Followers
When we are finally sober; where exactly do we start. I suppose I’ve never really touched on this topic in my blog. If you were in the grips off addiction like I was, you more than likely feel like you lost a lot of yourself and a lot of years: your character, personal ideation, personality, life; […]Read More Where to now
So much of my depression was encompassed by the feeling of emptiness. I didn’t really want to do anything; I had no interest in the things that I once enjoyed. I only wanted opiates to temporarily fill my brain with dopamine. Once I was fixed up all of that love came back to me; the […]Read More Emptiness And The Start of My Opiate Addiction
A brief history of my life as an addict, lost love, and my path towards sobriety. This is by far the most personal post I’ve ever made on my blog. If you’re interested about the life and evolution of an addict all the while struggling with depression and anxiety, please click the link below and […]Read More LIKE COGS IN THE WHEEL OF LIFE, SOME OF US JUST DON’T FIT QUITE AS WELL.
Today, I’ve completely broken my taper. I began my morning with throwing up the medication that I had previously taken. I felt the emptiness from the start of the day; Alone and isolated. From the moment I rolled out of bed, I knew where I stood. Broken, fractured, and hopefully trying to repair what is […]Read More And so I slip; every day isn’t a good day
If you have or are currently going through the process of addiction recovery, you likely know all too well your brains lack of motivation upon cessation of whatever substance you were abusing. During this time, depression and complacency can wreak havoc on your mental well-being. When we stop abusing whatever chemicals we were stimulating our […]Read More Finding an Outlet: The importance of stimulating your mind while recovering.
As we all likely know, relationships can be difficult; especially when you are dealing with addiction and depression issues. Mine led me to destroy the best thing that I had ever found to date; I broke another persons heart along with my own. This is my personal binding chain of shame and my own self […]Read More All Apologies: The ones spoken and the ones we never get to say.
Since beginning this process, my journaling and introspection has been the greatest key to my progress. Counseling has helped, so have medication changes, but truly trying to understand myself has been the key to overcoming the addictions that have controlled my life; You have to learn to be completely honest with yourself, and it doesn’t […]Read More Self reflection; The addicts greatest enemy and only salvation.